A Bit of a Reality Check.

February 16, 2008 at 2:54 pm (aww, jesus, kids, orchard valley, small groups, thoughts)


This is Amanda. She just joined my small group a few months ago.

This morning at our FUEL meeting, I got to talk with Amanda’s mom for a while and she told me that Amanda has been trying to part her hair to the side “because that’s how Bekah’s is”. She also told me that the other day they were at the store and Amanda started running around the store whipping clothes off the clothes racks and chucking them in the cart. Her bewildered mom had asked what in the world she was doing and she said she was picking out Bekah clothes.

I’ve heard things like this from a few moms, which really makes me think about how I live my life.

These 6 year old girls want to be just like me.

I never realized how much of an impact I actually had on them. They want to talk like me, dress like me, do what I do. I’d better make sure I’m living every moment and breathing every breath for Jesus Christ and setting the best example I can.


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Let’s Do This.

January 27, 2008 at 6:22 pm (and...ACTION!, life, thoughts)

We must be the change we wish to see in the world.

I am that change.

Things are going to be quite different around here as of now.

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No More “Religion”

January 8, 2008 at 7:30 pm (god, jesus, life, love, pain, people, poor, thoughts)

Quite honestly, I am very sick of so-called religion.

I feel like the church today is like an ostrich with it’s head stuck in the freaking sand. They simply just cannot seem to figure out what it means to follow Jesus. I’m just really disgusted with what people have made the word christianity out to be. You can’t say that you are a Christian out in public without having to defend and hopelessly justify every aspect of it. There is something sickeningly wrong with religion today and we all should be doing something to set that right. Instead of money, hypocrisy, lattes, and congregation numbers shouldn’t we be focusing on love and forgiveness? Compassion and mercy?

Love is the movement.

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What is Love?

December 29, 2007 at 7:22 pm (beauty, jesus, life, love, questions, thoughts)

“Love is like oxygen. Love is a many splendored thing. Love lifts us up where we belong. All you need is love!”

-Christian, Moulin Rouge

A few days ago a friend asked me how I would describe love.

That’s a really tough question. I haven’t answered him yet because I’m just not sure what to say. Honestly I don’t think you really can put it into words but….I’ll try. Love means something different to everyone. To some it’s lust and sex, to others, walking through the park at 87 with someone you’ve been with your whole life. The word itself is definitely underestimated and overused. For example, I love caramel macchiatos, or I love my iPod. If you really think about it, it just doesn’t make sense. I guess to me, love is more than a feeling. There’s more to it than that ache deep within you, more than your heart stopping momentarily. To me love is something much much more. Love is dying ((on the cross)) for someone who might decide to turn their back on you. Love is unconditional, everlasting, and unfathomable. Love here on earth isn’t even a teensy glimpse of the great depths that the love Christ has for us is. Love is indescribable.

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November 8, 2007 at 12:04 am (god, jesus, life, pain, questions, thoughts)

I have this problem. I always try to figure out God. I always try to understand why He does the things He does… but then He goes and shows me that there is absolutely NO way that I ever will.

It is SO incredibly hard sometimes to comprehend that everything will somehow figure in to His marvelous plan. Realizing that beauty can come from pain is hard to accept when the pain is so real and alive. This quote from Don puts things in a bit of a better light.

“It comforts me to think that if we are created beings, the thing that created us would have to be greater, so much greater, in fact, that we would not be able to understand it. It would have to be greater than the facts of our reality, and so it would seem to us, looking out from within our reality, that it would contradict reason. But reason itself would suggest it would have to be greater than reality, or it would not be reasonable.”

So, I guess, ((now I have so much running through my head right now my thoughts may not be comprehensible)) that in order for God to even make any sense at all to us, then it would only make sense for Him to make no sense.

But still it’s hard not to ask why.

Proverbs 16:9
We plan the way we want to live, but only God makes us able to live it.

The Message.

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November 3, 2007 at 10:44 am (blog, music, people, shows, thoughts)

I realize that I happened to rejoin the blogging world at a particularly busy time in my life. Therefore, my blog has desprately been lacking a proper post. It mainly consists of little snippets and not even full thoughts. I’ll try to make some time more often.

 But first, one more small thought I have to throw in here.

I’ve never been a huge Elton John fan but I have a new appreciation once I found out that he is the one who originally sang Your Song from Moulin Rouge. Of course I love the Ewan McGregor version a million times more, but still….

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I need to let go.

October 29, 2007 at 8:06 pm (god, life, questions, thoughts)

Why do some people make surrender seem like such an easy thing?

Why is it so easy to tell God that you’re going to let him script the story of your life…. but then again, why is it also so incredibly easy to take the pen back from Him and try to do it yourself?

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October 27, 2007 at 12:50 pm (gad, god, poor, thoughts)

“You guys are all into that born again thing, which is great. We need to be born again, since Jesus said that to a guy named Nicodemus. But if you tell me I have to be born again to enter the kingdom of God, I can tell you that you have to sell everything you have and give it to the poor, because Jesus said that to one guy too… But I guess that’s why God invented highlighters, so we can highlight the parts we like and ignore the rest.”

-Rich Mullins

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