April 24, 2008 at 2:11 pm (god, jesus)

I really can’t stand chain e-mails, but the worst are the “christian” ones.

I just got a one a few minutes that told me that if I really loved Jesus Christ then I would send this to everyone that I know. It also said that if I didn’t then I was depriving myself and something bad would undoubtedly happen to me. What’s more, it also said someone was going to go to hell because of me if I didn’t send it.

Jesus knows that I love Him. I don’t need to prove that to anybody. I would much rather proclaim my faith by going out and helping someone in need and loving on others rather than sitting at my computer forwarding emails with pictures of a very white jesus and a sheep. And no one is going to go to hell because of me because I strive to live for Christ and that includes telling others about Him.

This needs to stop. No joke.


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A Bit of a Reality Check.

February 16, 2008 at 2:54 pm (aww, jesus, kids, orchard valley, small groups, thoughts)


This is Amanda. She just joined my small group a few months ago.

This morning at our FUEL meeting, I got to talk with Amanda’s mom for a while and she told me that Amanda has been trying to part her hair to the side “because that’s how Bekah’s is”. She also told me that the other day they were at the store and Amanda started running around the store whipping clothes off the clothes racks and chucking them in the cart. Her bewildered mom had asked what in the world she was doing and she said she was picking out Bekah clothes.

I’ve heard things like this from a few moms, which really makes me think about how I live my life.

These 6 year old girls want to be just like me.

I never realized how much of an impact I actually had on them. They want to talk like me, dress like me, do what I do. I’d better make sure I’m living every moment and breathing every breath for Jesus Christ and setting the best example I can.

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No More “Religion”

January 8, 2008 at 7:30 pm (god, jesus, life, love, pain, people, poor, thoughts)

Quite honestly, I am very sick of so-called religion.

I feel like the church today is like an ostrich with it’s head stuck in the freaking sand. They simply just cannot seem to figure out what it means to follow Jesus. I’m just really disgusted with what people have made the word christianity out to be. You can’t say that you are a Christian out in public without having to defend and hopelessly justify every aspect of it. There is something sickeningly wrong with religion today and we all should be doing something to set that right. Instead of money, hypocrisy, lattes, and congregation numbers shouldn’t we be focusing on love and forgiveness? Compassion and mercy?

Love is the movement.

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What is Love?

December 29, 2007 at 7:22 pm (beauty, jesus, life, love, questions, thoughts)

“Love is like oxygen. Love is a many splendored thing. Love lifts us up where we belong. All you need is love!”

-Christian, Moulin Rouge

A few days ago a friend asked me how I would describe love.

That’s a really tough question. I haven’t answered him yet because I’m just not sure what to say. Honestly I don’t think you really can put it into words but….I’ll try. Love means something different to everyone. To some it’s lust and sex, to others, walking through the park at 87 with someone you’ve been with your whole life. The word itself is definitely underestimated and overused. For example, I love caramel macchiatos, or I love my iPod. If you really think about it, it just doesn’t make sense. I guess to me, love is more than a feeling. There’s more to it than that ache deep within you, more than your heart stopping momentarily. To me love is something much much more. Love is dying ((on the cross)) for someone who might decide to turn their back on you. Love is unconditional, everlasting, and unfathomable. Love here on earth isn’t even a teensy glimpse of the great depths that the love Christ has for us is. Love is indescribable.

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you gotta love free time…

December 27, 2007 at 10:03 pm (christmas, haha, jesus, randomness)

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Good Night.

December 24, 2007 at 11:13 pm (aww, christmas, fun, god, haha, jesus, kids, music, orchard valley)

Well I am exhausted. Christmas Eve at The Orchard was incredible….what else would you expect? We did Wizards in Winter by the Trans Siberian Orchestra with lights and smoke and the whole nine yards. It was awesome.

Well I hope you all have an amazinly wonderful Christmas and keep your focus straight tomorrow.

I’m off to bed. ((I already fell asleep with Naomi earlier and became the subject of much paparazzi who apparently thought it was adorable))

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November 8, 2007 at 12:04 am (god, jesus, life, pain, questions, thoughts)

I have this problem. I always try to figure out God. I always try to understand why He does the things He does… but then He goes and shows me that there is absolutely NO way that I ever will.

It is SO incredibly hard sometimes to comprehend that everything will somehow figure in to His marvelous plan. Realizing that beauty can come from pain is hard to accept when the pain is so real and alive. This quote from Don puts things in a bit of a better light.

“It comforts me to think that if we are created beings, the thing that created us would have to be greater, so much greater, in fact, that we would not be able to understand it. It would have to be greater than the facts of our reality, and so it would seem to us, looking out from within our reality, that it would contradict reason. But reason itself would suggest it would have to be greater than reality, or it would not be reasonable.”

So, I guess, ((now I have so much running through my head right now my thoughts may not be comprehensible)) that in order for God to even make any sense at all to us, then it would only make sense for Him to make no sense.

But still it’s hard not to ask why.

Proverbs 16:9
We plan the way we want to live, but only God makes us able to live it.

The Message.

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October 23, 2007 at 7:47 pm (friends, fun, jesus, life, love, people, vcbc)

This weekend was the most amazing weekend of my life!  I can’t believe the close relationships formed and the fun we had and God was really at work in peoples hearts. I can’t even find the words to describe it! If you have a facebook, then you can see all of pictures on there… if not then hopefully they will be going up on Flickr soon.

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I’m off.

October 19, 2007 at 7:56 am (friends, fun, jesus, love, people, vcbc)

Im leaving for Village Creek in about an hour, and I could not be more ecstatic! That place means so much to me! My parents met there, I grew up there, I accepted Christ there, most of my closest friendships were made there. I love it and I can’t wait! An update of course will be in order once I return and, knowing me, millions upon millions of pictures.

Have an awesome weekend!

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So what is a caffeinated ragamuffin?

September 8, 2007 at 9:24 am (coffee, jesus)

Ragamuffins are the outcasts. The losers. The ((as Brennan Manning says)) the burnt-out, the beat up, the bedraggled. They’re the ones that Jesus chose to hang out with instead of the high and mighty, know it all, priests and other religious leaders. A ragamuffin is exactly what i want to be all my life. I never want to think that I’ve reached the zenith of my faith. I never want to tell myself that there is nothing more I can learn about my savior Jesus Christ. I will forever be constantly open and learning. I will never know it all and I will most definitely never be perfect. So therefore I am a ragamuffin. I, in no way, deserve Christ’s love and forgiveness yet I have it anyway! I am a ragamuffin.

So… a caffeinated ragamuffin…

pretty much just a ragamuffin that has quite an inhuman addiction to coffee.

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